Started out good but ended up turning bad

Well my day seemed to start out good, but ended up turning bad.  Very Very Very bad.  How bad?  Bad enough for me who isn’t one to drink to down an entire bottle of wine in less that two hours.  I was so upset, hurt, angry and then some my nerves were just not in a good place so I drank the wine!  I don’t have a “hangover” or nothing today but it did calm my nerves down…  All I know is I don’t ever want another day like that.  It’s too much to put into words, my blog entry would take you literally hours to read.

Parenting sucks sometimes!  Sometimes its take something major to blow up before your child realizes OK I better rethink a few things.  Sometimes its letting them go knowing they are going to completely fall on their ass, but you have to do it.  All I know is I did not back down and stood my ground and I have no regrets over it.

Things are ok now.  Its been brewing for quite sometime and just frankly came to a head last night.  I won’t live in my own house with this kind of stress when it literally effects my health and well being.  I won’t have it, I won’t for it.   If you use the “I’m going to leave” crap with me, you will find out where it gets you.  I am not going to run after, chase or beg anyone, to stay.  Not happening!   It’s a hard lesson in life somethings you think you know it all and have all the answers and when push comes to shove you find out you don’t.  Then you have grown a bit when your the one making that call asking can I come back home?

So today I think things are OK…better honestly then its been.  Going from teen to adult hood isn’t easy and sometimes your mind is way farther ahead of where you can actually be at that moment in your life.

Our door has always been open to come and talk and work though things, my daughter thought she had to deal with all this stuff on her own and no one put that kind of weight on her shoulders but herself.  She felt she had to just figure out all those mixed up emotions on her own, and now I feel perhaps it will be better….

Only time will tell.  If I sound like a puzzle right now just bare with me.