Saturday is here and I am exhausted!

Boy I have to tell you between all that bull with the pixel crap of the week, the heat, stress at home with the familiy, hubby not realizing I am on my last string of nerves here with things, I am just exhausted!!! I am sick and tired of crap. Last night as I was catching up on folding laundry, 5:30 rolls around and everyone is wondering where is dinner. Whats for dinner. My dad even was like whats for dinner I said I am making you burgers dad just give me a minute to catch up, the kids were a handful this afternoon so I need to catch up. Why the hell can’t oh I dunno my 17 year old flipping help me with getting dinner going??? I am but one person, I mean hubby could of gotten the flipping grill going for his brat’s and dad’s burgers ya know I mean, he was off work at 2:30, no overtime the past few weeks, come on help a woman out once in a while. He didn’t believe me when I told him about dad’s insurance, his car insurance is due like ours, and his says pleasure, then school and work only 30 miles weekly. Well the insurance man knews how much dad drives, that why says for pleasure on it. But hubby didn’t beleive me. So I told him to call the insurance guy then cause I know what he told me. Sure enough he told him dad was fine. OMG!!! That was the start of his we never will get head crap. Nope you bought a house and the expenses went up. Our bills are paid, I took on more kids so we are fine. Sure we are not rolling in it, I mean who is???? I am tried of him not understanding. Look at the flipping price of milk for God sakes.. 4 to 5 dollars for a gallon!! So what they hike the gas, that must be really straining on cows!! What a crock. Now that they are using corn for fuel, the price of cereal went up. Lets not even think of the price of meat. But I don’t really need to post too much details as we all are feeling it. But I am tired of feeling as if I don’t do my part and I am a burden. Thats how he makes me feel and I am sick of it. All he does is go to work, which I know is alot, and he does the yard work. Inside, he doesn’t have to do a thing, I do it all, what lil the kids do I end up doing anyhow cause God forbid they actually put a lil muscle into it!! I even dish up his plate and bring it to him. I take care of him, I trim his toenails for him, rub his feet or back when needed. Plus watching the kids, taking care of dad, never once even when I am on the computer over the years has my house once been dirty! NOT once! Or how about you didn’t ask if you bitch about something. I have to ask?? Are you flipping kidding me?? I will not ask I should not have to ask. Its flipping common courtsey!!! I will not beg for help around here.

So last night I told them all I get dinner cooked, they were all on their own I was leaving and I be back by Monday morning to babysit. When I wanted to leave it was to get away from everything, yes him included and he doesn’t like that feeling. Well what can I say, its how I felt. Do you think hubby was gonna let me leave last night? Nope! He kept his shoes on all evening keys at hand. Had to run to drug store for my son anyhow, he had a hang nail, pulled it, dirt in the area and now its infected and did he tell me?? He is 15 what do you think?? So off I went and getting him doctored up. UGH keep a sock on dude!!! But hubby took me… gee worried I wasn’t coming back perhaps? He did tell me in the car he was sorry for making me feel the way I did.

So today I am just exhausted. And some wonder why????