No news not necessarily good!

Today I got a call from dads Lung Doctor’s Office about the CT Scan he was to have done in October.  I told them he did in fact have it done, that we have not heard back from them, if there was no change if that meant they would continue to repeat again in six months and follow up at that time or not.  That is where they left things the last time we talked.  She told me she check the system, have the doctor review the scan and would contact me back.  She called back later this afternoon which some unexpected news.

Dads CT scan came back abnormal and not good.  Dad has to have a PET Scan done now.  Due to the nature  of why these this test is done in the first place, as you can imagine I am quite worried and scared.  We know he had nodules in his lungs and they have been watching them.  Dad had his visit with the RA doctor last Friday and the blood work is off and he has some weight loss (seven pounds) but his appetite is pretty good.  Its very unusual for dad to not go out in the evenings and he is now laying down in his room.  He has been doing this every night.  He has been having more coughing too.  So something definitely is up!

When dad came home today I told him about his scan being abnormal and that he needed to have another scan done and left out the “PET” part because if he knows they are checking for cancer, he won’t go.  Its important he have this test done.  VERY VERY important.   They are faxing orders over to the medical campus where they do this test at and they will contact me to set up the time.   He has been complaining of belly pain too but refusing to see a doctor so really this test could put to rest a lot of worries, or bring it light and out in the open.

I have not cried, which is weird for me.  But my chest and heart feels heavy.  I am scared I am worried.  Signs are there that something is definitely wrong, and will deal with what comes along at that time.  I won’t sit here and do what if its this or that.  I will handle it as it comes.  Honestly its all I can do.  I know I have friends who are and will pray and I know that the holy spirit is with me.  I am not alone.  Hubby is trying to brace me for worst case scenario.  I need him to be supportive and be there for me no matter what.

One day at a time, but I have to tell you this waiting for the call to make the appointment, then going to the appointment and going to the doctor, I think is just the worst feeling, and this is the feeling I didn’t want my dad to sit and struggle with.