In less than one hour…

In less than ONE hour I opened and emptied this bottle of wine!  Why?? My son!  His mouth, the stress, just have had it and needed something to calm my nerves and has been the first I had any think of this nature since September when I had a huge blow out with my daughter and her boyfriend.   One thing I have zero tolerance for is disrespect, thank the military in me is what I told my son.  But he had the nerve to inch up from the sofa and get in my hubby’s face and I blew a gasket!!  I was shaking and trembling so I knew I had the bottle of wine in the refrigerator so I drank it.   Besides running to the bathroom a lot I don’t feel too bad.  Tired!  I feel tired!!  My dad still isn’t home he is really upset with my son right now. I try so hard to avoid my dad getting upset with my son, who now just blew his summer with grandpa according to my daughter.

We were suppose to meet up at Cracker Barrel but my son had a pouty mouth, was very disrespectful and upset (all over a game).  He threw things in my face, and even my hubby’s face and that is when I lost it!!  I went over and smacked him a good one and it must of been the grace of God that kept me from smacking him anymore!  It wasn’t my hubby that moved me away!  You don’t inch up and raise your self like your going to physically confront me anymore!  I warned him I won’t tolerate it anymore the other day! He dared my hubby and I jumped in!  So I told my daughter and her boyfriend (and hubby but he would not go without me) to go meet up with grandpa and enjoy dinner, I was staying home, I was NOT rewarding my son with a treat with dinner out for that type of behavior.  I absolutely refused!  I wasn’t backing done.  One of the not so good perks of parenting is sometimes you miss out but that is what happens.  That is when it hit the fan!  After all that happened is when I went for the wine to calm my nerves.  My heart was just beating out of my chest (trying to describe the moment).

I don’t know what to do with him.  He says all I do is “interrupt him” when I call for him (gee it was to say to get ready to go for dinner this time) and that my hubby never “listens”, etc.  All I do is over react and all we do is that and that, but not ONCE did he ever state what he does that is wrong.  Of course that is the magic of teenagers, they never do anything wrong.

Then my daughter calls to tell me how upset my dad is we didn’t come to dinner, how my son rolls his eyes at him when he asks him to get him something like a dish of ice cream when he is playing a game, or how when he takes him places how he treats him.  Nice!  That just made me cry!  My dad was just telling me how he was going to take my son with him to races and tractor pulls this summer (well a month or so ago) and now he doesn’t want to.  He still hasn’t come home yet.

I try very hard to not let things that go on at home happen in front of my dad so that it doesn’t affect him, but dammit I wasn’t rewarding my son or backing down for his disrespectful behavior.  Not having it, not doing it.  I hope he comes home soon, I am very worried now which does not help matters either.

Have not had much to eat today, just a few chips.  Hubby says I need food, naaa I just need some more to drink thank you!