Wow that’s alot!!
June 29, 2007
Wow I logged into one of the sites I get paid for writing blog entries on sites and products and when I agreed to sign up I agreed to blog all that were basicially assigned to me. Wow I log in this evening because I went weeks with barely a few to three yesterday and this evening there is 8 pending. I have till July 6th to blog them but wow thats alot at one time. I wasn’t expecting to have so many at once. But at the same time thats added up to a nice sum of money and when the payments come into my paypal its a nice feeling that I have some play money to use online to spend on anything I may want at the time. This isn’t something that I have to ASK my husband first to spend the money on, its just how he was raised and I deal with it, yes it drives me nuts, but this is a way for me to make a little money and have something for myself, like the painting I ordered a week ago from Scotland, and my scrapbooking kits, and maybe a little something on a whim! So to me its worth it in the end, but I keep the flow of personal posts flowing and it only averages 12 to 15% of paid postings.
I may in the future decide to cut back and only stick with one of the three sites I am signed up to do the paid posting. Its a process and trying something new. I wasn’t expecting within a week to have 11 to post from one of the three sites. I will see how it goes and if I am assigned that many more again at one time I may have to step back from one of them. I don’t mind the 26 posts since I started in May of paid posting, but if its gonna out do my personal posting then my purpose of having my blog isn’t being met. This is my release and my safe haven, so we shall see!
Trying to plan some sort of vacation!
June 29, 2007
UGH sometimes, hmm, well most of the time I could just pull my hair out, I am surprised I have so much hair, well not surpised about the gray that is appearing though!
Well hubby is on vacation next week and the girls are on vacation so I told the boy’s parents a few weeks ago I was taking the week, as I have never taken a week off in the 9 years I have been babysitting and well I need a break. Since hubby is off I thought good week to take a vacation.
So now I am trying to make some plans. I thought about Geauga Lake then hubby said hey why not check it out. But I am watching the weather report and needless to say chance of rain calling on those days we were trying to pick from grrr. But I thought hey why not KennyWood in PA. It looks like a really nice park and we never been there and its only an extra 1/2 hour or so of traveling. OH thats always fun driving with hubby to someplace new as he expects me to be the navigator and yet I am not the one behind the wheel and its where, when, where when, what exit again, left or right. LOL
So my dad wants to go if we go to P.A. Ok we are cool with that but then he well my check comes that day well yeah just cash it after the 4th, I mean now much money will he need, he won’t be home he will be with us and we can swing his meal cost too. Every thing has to have a but… we thought thursday for the park thing but calling for rain, monday is hubby’s dental appointment so not happening then. Not on the 4th cause hubby said crowds…aaarrrgggghhhhhh
Tuesday they were suppose to go to Thompson Raceway, dad, hubby and my son to see the jet fuel truck and Bob Motz, which last week at a show the truck got on fire and he is in hospital, was in critical condition, so that event isn’t happening now obviously. So dad all pouty like, well ya know what can I do bout it ya know. My daughter and I were to have a girls day out, lunch at Olive Garden and stuff and we are not pouty pusses.
So I thought we go to SugarCreek Tuesday, but since weather is an issue, I thought we could swap it around, go to KennyWood Tuesday then to SugarCreek which is amish country thursday. Friday I like to have the day alone with hubby and us take off for the day someplace.
So its still all up in the air!!!!! I hope by Sunday to have some more concrete plans here.
What happened to Equal Opportunity Employment??
June 28, 2007
First and foremost for the record here I am a NON SMOKER. But I read an article in the Plain Dealer today that I just disagree with. I realize the Equal Opportunity Employment Laws do no have any legal wording for those who use tobacco but I have to tell you that I disagree with some decisions that are being made.
For example there are businesses who now will not hire anyone who uses Tobacco and will send qualified applicants for testing. Now that’s just a bit messed up. I am all for a healthy America believe me. I grew up around two chain smoking parents. My husband smokes, its a habit he is weaning, he has gone from a pack and a half a day to just a few cigarettes. So he is slowly getting there. Because of my health he smokes out in the garage or outside. There are the NO smoking laws that are in effect here in Ohio as well like at parks, place to eat, amusement parks, etc…
But seriously to judge whether or not you hire someone based on tobacco use? I think that’s just not right. Do you know how many unemployed people that could lead too. Yes no smoking now in public places pretty much tells you there is no smoking at work places. But what someone does at home, I mean that is the same as saying if this person drinks any form of Alcohol, they will not be allowed to work there either, of course they don’t drink during the day. But what one does at home is there business. I myself enjoy a Smirinoff Ice (grape) every now and again at home or a fuzzy navel at hubby’s Christmas party at work, and hubby enjoy’s his Coor’s light.
That really is sad after years of experience, or all the money paid to go to school for a quality education and sorry but you use tobacco so you can’t work.
Everyone has choices in life to make. It’s called Life and some make good choices, some make bad choices. There are way worse things such as the illegal drug use. I can see that, but seriously tobacco use? This leads to health issues yes, but so does a lot like all those medications given to patients because they were told it would help them, then years later you come to find out those were bad for your health in other wise or cause your mind to wig out and end results leading to deaths and suicides, those artificial sweeteners that kill brain cells, artificial flavoring, additives being added to our meat now to cut costs in having butchers employed at grocery retail stores, all those added injected hormones to produce more milk, the list just goes on.
What could happen by doing this? Its very possible this will lead to more unemployed folks because they started a bad habit. If tobacco was soooo bad all this time and they knew for how long why didn’t they stop it umpteen years ago? I will tell you why. Tobacco equals MONEY! As long as people are using tobacco and spending the billions of dollars its generating its ok, but I guess now if those who are tobacco users can’t get jobs then they can’t afford to buy tobacco is that it?????
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June 28, 2007
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Thank you to my mystery gifter!!
June 27, 2007
Today I received an email that literally made my day. Someone has gifted me a gift certificate today to Artistic Minds Inc so that I could get some more Suzanne Woolcott’s Graphics to create with. This is a gift from someone sweet in one of Suzanne’s groups that I am in. I am so touched and honestly came to quite a suprise and shock because I really don’t know these girls and yet someone was so kind and generous to gift me a gift certificate. I picked out two sets of elements and three single graphics to play with. So to my mystery gifter, I thank you so very much! This is my lastest scrap tag called Bathtime Cutie. It certainly made my day!!!
Sad news and things don’t change
June 27, 2007
Well my mom called me with sad news. The guy she lives with just had surgery last year, had half of his left lung removed due to a tumor. They said he was cancer free but recommended having one or a few chemo treatments and he elected not too. So she calls to let me know that its back and in his right lung and into the veins of his heart so there is nothing they can do. With radiation treatments they gave him three to six months to live. My heart goes out to him very much so. It’s sad news. So she tells me how they are seeing a lawyer this weekend to get his will drawn up so she will get the house, so I assume he had some kind of insurance to pay it off. I feel bad for her don’t get me wrong I do, but I don’t. Her reason for cheating and leaving my dad was she couldn’t handle taking care of him anymore, and sounds to me she put herself in a much worse situation. My dad has no sympathy what so ever and I guess you can’t blame him for that, but I don’t wish bad things for the guy she is with and told him he shouldn’t be angry with him. So I told her I wished we were closer and I got oh you have your life don’t worry about me I have my friends here, and goes on to list so in so this and so in so that. Oh ok. Well that should not shock me right, its always been friends before family, I mean why should something like this change things.
So see I feel bad, she will end up living alone and its really gonna kick her in the ass, but then again she has her friends down there so perhaps not. She doesn’t come to see us, only calls when things are not good, I call her weekly and barely manage 10 to 20 minutes with her.
I don’t know this guy hardly at all. The times we got to visit it wasn’t like a bonding thing ya know what I mean? And its been three years since my mom even seen us and before that I had to not tell her I was coming and showed up where she worked. She didn’t want to see us at Christmas, this was our third year last year.
So there will be no funeral or service. Hubby could not get off time at work anyhow as he isn’t considered immediate family. But then she says just come see him once before he dies and really why again should I do this? I am not heartless don’t get me wrong but I don’t know him, I know mom is living with him, they haven’t come to visit us so why should I go there now? I wasn’t welcomed to come visit her even at the holidays for crying out loud, when I had surgery she didn’t come to see me. So no I won’t be going down nor putting my family through that either. His own kids have to deal with guilt as they don’t visit or see him either and his son is like 5 minutes away, so honestly its his own kids that should come visit him. Not me.
So I am sad to hear the news but at the same time some things never change. She will never change and I just don’t have it in me anymore to deal with feeling that in her eyes her friends are more valuable and I am just a worthless piece of shit she gave birth too.
Too Halarious!!!
June 26, 2007
I just finished a tag and I so have to show it here, its just too damn funny LOL
Protected: Emotional Times…..
June 25, 2007
Seems like Sundays seem to go really down hill for me emotionally. My hubby uses this TOV with me sometimes that he has NEVER EVER used with my stepson! If you are wondering what TOV is, its tone of voice. I tell him TOV I am not your kid, I am your wife don’t talk to me like that. Somedays I really could just take off and not tell anyone where I am. Its coming faster than anyone knows!!! I got a double decker of sorts. First I go grocery shopping I wasn’t gone 15 minutes someone bought another lighter. So when I say something he is like on like you don’t use the account. Actually I don’t cause I am not allowed. I said I used my blog money to get my art piece I ordered, and he said so what I need to get a second job too to spend money out of the account? WTF was that?? I said well I don’t use it less it docs, meds or food cause I know its not for me to use. I said gee whiz its not even the end of June and this makes 5 lighters that came out of the account, I said you seem to forget you got a collection set for our Anniversary and Father’s Day plus you have ordered one last weekend plus this one, thats 5 in one month. ALL of them came from checking in one month’s time. Of course there isn’t money for me, there never is! Then my daughter is talking about moving out of state which if she does I will be in therapy because I only pictured her living in the state so I could be an active part of my grandkids lives. MY mom and I don’t have a relationship, never did, never will. My kids I have worked really damn hard and planned on being there for them always and babysitting for them so they never have to go through what they did or carry the guilt I carry for the rest of my life from the sitter who abused my kids. And she and her friends planning to get away so I said to Hubby if she seriously moves out of state and marry’s we are gonna have to move closer. WELL I guess I am going alone. Nice one.
He seems to have these grand plans of traveling. Oh what planet? WE don’t have that kind of money now what makes him think its magically gonna appear when he retires? And hello 65 years old? As if he is gonna wanna travel all the time. Hell we don’t do SHIT now and he is only in his forties! It scares me to see how my dad is, how much our house payment is and its still have 29 years plus 3 months before its paid off. All I ever said in life I wanted to do was take a cruise, maybe to Hawaii and go to Italy. I was told Italy never will happen as he will not ever fly. So that leaves a cruise. But do you really think I wanna wait till he retires? Shit I wanna go sooner than that, I wanna enjoy it not be sitting on the poop deck worn out from walking from our cabin to the deck! Thats ever all I ever said I wanted to do travel wise.
But he has made this plans, so tell me, was that with me? NO, its nice to know someone is making all my decisions. I thought marriage was a two way deal, a partnership, compromise, 50/50. Hmmm I guess I was wrong. And if my kids do move away, I am telling you now I better see a therapist so I can handle it because I never imagined that they live in another state from me. I always pictured us being a close and getting to be an active grandparent. I know she still has time and who is to say that will happen but he says what if it was his son. So I said oh ok, hmm gee who was it that flipping fought for you to have time with your son has he use to lie and say he had to work and then took off tho be with his friends and write in his blog bragging ha ha and got away with it hmm? Who said one day you will regret that? Don’t even throw that in my face. Its not MY fault he just shows up here unexpectedly for two hours to dawn you with his presence. As I sit taking my my shoes off cause the walk is off now, or the nature hike or something. I am sick of being put aside. What am I? A comfort zone? Stability cause I am always here?
One day people are going to push me and keep putting me aside and I am just gonna disappear…… No one to blame but themselves. I’m tired emotionally. I bury myself in my scrapping or creativity all the time cause I am stuck in this house. I can’t spend any money on myself w/o asking first. Hell someone couldn’t even take the time, make the time to do a little something for our anniversary but yet I did! Imagine that me with NO car cause we have one car and he has it for work………….and if I even say a peep then they assume its just to make others feel bad so really what is the point??????
Realization growing up, I didn’t matter really, I was a built in free slave honestly. From the age of 12 until I moved out and rented a house with my babies, (and then they came over every night for dinner as I lived behind where they worked) I did all the cooking and all the cleaning while my mom laid on her ass watching tv and waited on her hand and foot and my dad sat there drinking his beer cause that is how he handled things. Most kids were out playing and having fun, while I sat at home. I sit outside just to get outside and watch my dad work in the yard or on cars. Nope could not have friends spend the night, if they called I got a whole 1 minute to talk. So getting a job at 16 and paying for my own clothes and lunches was a highlight, this is why I joined the Navy, to get away. But I came back home to care for my dad after that because everyone else gave up on him when he has his annerism and 10 hour brain surgery and strokes. So I guess I am just a little sensative in this area of my kids saying they are leaving. Perhaps because of why I felt I had to leave to get away from my mother and when I found out I was pregnant I still have my journal how happy I was and I wanted my first baby to be a girl and this was someone who would love me unconditionally. And I always planned to be there even for my grandkids and not tell my daughter you don’t get a break till they are 18 when she calls to see if I can babysit so she can have a lil time alone.
Now I take care of my dad. It’s a responsibility I don’t take lightly. He has no one else. So then I sit and I wonder who is gonna be there for me at that age? Will anyone help me someday if my health is bad? Or will I be stuck??? Thats an awlful feeling to have but those are things I think about.
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